Broken

For the most part, fear is nothing but an illusion. When you share it with someone else, it tends to dissapear

After having a really good weekend, spending time with friends, and a wonderful day at the lake, we came home to find that our house had been burglarized. Upon seeing cords hanging were our tv once was, and our drawers open, with items scattered on the floor, and in the sink, our clothes tossed from drawers, my jewelry boxes gone, and so forth... The instant feeling of disgust and fear was overwhelming. The horror of not knowing where my cat was, and looking for her, and not finding her, and when I finally did, I could not get her to come out from under the bed. My dogs were freaked out, and stressed. What is worse is what these people did to us emotionally. It hurts that they took things that Cory and I have worked together to have, but what hurts even more is they took our sense of security. They just didn't just rob our house they robbed our hearts of trust in people. I can't tell you how awful it feels to be scared in your own home, the place that is supposed to be your comfort zone. Every sound I hear I jump, checking to make sure the doors are locked, worrying that they will come back. I find myself wondering who did this to us, are they still watching us, is it someone we know, and how come this happened. But I know that God is bigger then all of this, and I know that he hears my prayers, and that he will get us through this. Cory told me that all of the stuff they took is God's stuff anyway, and that everything that is really important we still have, Eachother, and our pets. I don't even know if I should be writing about this.. but this is something that has changed me. I look at the pictures on the wall of Cory and I on our wedding day. To me it is two people who joined together to make a life with eachother. Those people didn't see the light of love in our eyes, all they saw was our material things, they disregarded that our home is where we love eachother, where we dream, and make memories. This is a realization that things happen that you never think will happen to you.
We have wonderful friends and family that have been so supportive and loving to us. It feels good to know that we have people in our life who really care about us. And though we may be broken we do have Faith. And having Faith is more then just saying you have it. It is times like this that you have to put that Faith in motion. And we may have been knocked down hard for a moment, but it is our faith in God that is sustaining us. And the initial feelings of shock and disbelief are being healed by the presence of God, and the knowledge that this too will pass.

Nellie's Bump

My beautiful, sweet, cousin Dawnelle is having a baby. I am so happy for her. She is going to be the best mommy. Kids have always flocked to her, even when she was a kid herself. She just has such a warm personality, and genuinely enjoys to be around kids, and I think they can feel it. I think she is going to have a girl... I don't know why I just do. When Nellie was little she was so darn cute.. and I just know that her baby is going to be the cutest too. She sent me a couple of pics... and I could have died.. she already looks so adorable. I am so excited, and am already looking forward to buying her something for her baby shower. What a wonderful time in her life... Fabulous I tell you.

Happy Campers

This past weekend we went camping. Well it wasn't really hardcore camping, because we stayed in my brother in laws camper. Cory wanted to set up our tent, but to be honest with all the bear attacks going on lately, I preferred to stay in the camper. Cory really wanted to stay in the tent, and usually I give in, but this time it came down to flipping a coin. And I won the toss.. so camper it was. It was a lot of fun though. We played UNO on Friday night.. I forgot how fun that game is. Casey and Randy played the guitar and sang songs for us. It was so nice. Smores, fly fishing, fresh air, yummy food, girl talk, and lots of laughing.. oh yeah and dirty hair, and no make up, and smelling like smoke from the fire. I wore waders for the first time, and I have to say it was fun walking through the river and not have to worry about getting wet. It really is so beautiful in Conejos.

I wanted to try making these foil dinners that I read about here and here but I wasn't in charge of taking the food so maybe next time...but they look so yummy. One of these days I am going to try them.



Cory was really excited here because this is the first fish he caught,, look at his smile.



Casey and his girlfriend... she's is a nurse, and she is sweet.


My father in law, he is musically talented. If he is not playing an instrument, he is whistling, or tapping on something to make a beat.


My best buddy. He was worried that I was going to fall in the river... I have to say those rocks in the water are pretty slippery. And let's be honest... I seem to be accident prone.



I love this pic of my father in law and his boys. Handsome fellas I tell ya!


It really is fun to camp, and enjoy the fresh air. It was neat too because it also rained on Friday night, and the sound was soothing, and there is nothing better then the after rain smell in the woods. All in all it was pretty fantastic.