He won't remember how his face lights up when I walk into the room to get him out of his crib.
He won't remember how he looks deep into my eyes when I am rocking or nursing him. He won't remember how I have to hold back my tears (sometimes I can't)when his eyes hold mine. In those moments I hear him telling me how much he loves me.
He won't remember how he likes me to sing to him while driving, or how he likes to scream back and forth at eachother just so he can hear his voice.
He won't remember so many things that I hold so dear to me right now in this special time in my life. He made me a mom, he is teaching me so much. If I thought I was compassionate, sensitive, strong, nurturing, loving, and patient before.. he is making me more in all those ways now. He may not remember all these things, but he feels it, and those feelings of love and security will shape him. It is my greatest hope and goal to show him love, show him strength... to help him to be confident, to be all he can be. I never want to let him down. God is so amazing. He created this role of a mother, this gift of a child, these lessons of what life means wrapped up in this most important job. I have one precious baby. And for the things he won't remember...... I will never forget.
