Being A Pleaser

Sometimes I get so tired of trying to please people. Always trying to say the right thing, do the right thing, act the right way, be the right way! I know that God made who I am. Don't get me wrong. I really do care about people's feelings, I care that I am polite to people, that I am nice, and sincere to people. It makes me happy to make people feel comfortable, to have them know that I care. What messes me up though is, the way people can be in return. Sometimes I feel like I spend so much time trying to please people, that I forget the ultimate one I need to please...God. Sometimes while I am pleasing other people, I am so unpleasing to God. That makes me really sad. I know in my heart that my gifts that God gave to me are unique, and I know that he is proud when I reach out to people, and treat them the way he wants me to... I need to remember that. I just get really fed up sometimes.... so I guess you can tell that I am a little upset. It is just that for all the trying to please people, those very same people can just turn around and not even give a second thought to caring about my feelings. I'd rather not pin point the reasons for my sudden revelation...just it feels good to write about it, vent, express, gripe, complain. Yes I am feeling a little better. Most people are wonderful... I mean I do not claim to be perfect. In fact I know there are a lot of things about me that drive people nuts. I am indecisive, say I am sorry for everything, clumsy, somewhat unorganized, very sensitive and so on.I know you want to know who these people are...but I'll never tell...I mean it could hurt their feelings. :)